tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46671060912880823222024-02-06T21:56:42.742-07:00Purple Butterfly NightsMy place on the net to share my world and my thoughts.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-44989962731904654352012-10-17T11:19:00.000-06:002012-10-17T11:19:20.483-06:00Testing flavorsOne of the things that used to take stress off of me was to bake or cook. I am getting back to where that is fun. I am looking forward to doing some test batches tonight. I am thinking Chocolate Peppermint and Gingerbread.....Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-74193674710104866282012-10-10T18:12:00.000-06:002012-10-10T18:12:20.813-06:00Supplements are hereI really didn't figure at 31 that I would be taking handfuls of pills morning and night. I have a bunch of supplements, anti-inflammatory herbs and then trying to eat right. Fighting through this is going to be a hard thing but I hope worth it in the end. With proper nutrition I am hoping my body can start letting go of the fat. <br />
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I have the running plan ready to start when I get back from Laramie this weekend. We got the downstairs cleaned out and should have the exercise bikes in place before the end of the weekend as well. I have the exercise balls in and I am working really hard on setting myself up for success.<br />
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Here's to another week and heading off to get the pills put together and start healing, or so I hope.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-46615760102380331042012-10-05T15:37:00.000-06:002012-10-05T15:37:50.648-06:00Trying to stay positive - Reduced risk of Hormone based cancer is good<a href="http://celiacdisease.about.com/od/medicalguidelines/tp/Celiac-Disease-Complications.htm" style="background-color: white; color: #1155cc; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;" target="_blank">http://celiacdisease.about.<wbr></wbr>com/od/medicalguidelines/tp/<wbr></wbr>Celiac-Disease-Complications.<wbr></wbr>htm</a><br />
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I see a lot of things from the recent test results here. Trying to stay positive. This weekend will be cleaning out the fridge, freezers and pantry. Have to get it super clean.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-42008429186565947462012-10-04T16:15:00.000-06:002012-10-04T16:15:55.276-06:00The results are in....So after a very disappointing experience I have a copy of the blood work The analysis from the medical professional could take a couple of weeks. I have had a couple of people with medical backgrounds look it over and bottom line it is filled with a high white count, malnutrition and inflammation.<br />
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The most likely cause is damage from full blown Celiac's disease. That is my starting point. I don't know where else to go if not there. I have ordered supplements that should help with the nutritional absorption and will make the additional changes to my diet. I have committed to doing what I can to make my diet cleaner than it already is. I have also committed to taking control of exercise and getting back to it.<br />
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I am frustrated. This is literally an auto-immune condition where your body attacks itself. You don't "catch" it, your body reacts. Some say it is genetics, some say it is dietary but medical science does not know. There is no cure, this is a lifetime commitment that comes with increased risk of thyroid issues, rheumatoid arthritis, headaches, joint pain and inflammation. Heart issues, skin issues and many others are a likelihood.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-78597356579028204862012-10-02T14:28:00.000-06:002012-10-02T14:28:09.674-06:00Wiped out and reactive hypoglycemiaFor the last several days my blood sugars have been up and down. Being forced to leave an event that I was hosting on Saturday was among the last straws. So I went through a researched. Apparently because of the way the American standard diet is it limits blood sugar crashes and trends toward a higher blood sugar in general. With the gluten free diet I tend to forget the rules about balancing carbs, protein and fat. In large part I have tried to eliminate starches or limit them to once a day to try to pull some of my weight off. As a result I tend not to be doing a lot in terms of carbs.<br />
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I had a blood draw done on Saturday and I hope that this will be what the new practitioner needs to "fix" me. I should find out something hopefully tomorrow if not I will hope for by the end of the week. They have agreed to send me the results once they have them.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-17970179962070046472012-09-28T12:00:00.001-06:002012-09-28T12:00:53.837-06:00Vegetable Beef Soup - The Homemade VersionSo this has been back to "being good" and avoiding gluten at all costs. Work can be hard. My boss on occasion buys lunch for everyone. The problem is it is usually lunch for everyone but me. It is hard to put that image of sticking out in the lunchroom in junior high away. I hate not being able to join in but have learned that the pizza and pasta she usually opts to buy the staff is definitely not worth the risk. It is days like this that my resolve weakens and I do things that I wouldn't normally that hurt in the long run. So this week, I decided knowing that she was going to buy Italian for the staff that I would make myself some vegetable beef soup. So I got some good lean beef, onions from our garden, carrots, heirloom golden potatoes mushrooms and green peas. A little home made beef broad and tomato powder. I am looking forward to having it though I am not sure it will mitigate the smell of the Italian. At least I am trying.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-20513164987060435302012-09-27T09:12:00.001-06:002012-09-27T09:12:18.503-06:00Some daysSome days crawling back under the covers was the right option..... Oh well, I will make the best of the dayGracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-7206445796082814492012-09-26T12:43:00.001-06:002012-09-26T12:43:17.798-06:00So "I'm back" wasn't really there....Ever feel like you have written the same cycle of blog entries 1,000 times?<br />
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We'll here it is again. I finally found someone I think can actually help with the chronic pain issues. I am going to have to be very strict with my diet. I am also going to do what I can to drop the weight and strengthen my back. If I don't then there isn't going to be much enjoyment in my world.<br />
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So what does that mean? Means I got a kick in my butt about the fact that it is me being lazy that is the reason I hurt and am heavy. So I am going to take a shot at couch to 10K. 13 weeks of training to run. I am going to work on several 5K and 10K runs this summer.<br />
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So I am currently finding a way to download audio books and putting together some playlists. I have a plan and put exercise on my schedule and the family calendar. No hiding from it now. I will pull out workout clothing tonight when I get home.<br />
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I am going to take a three-week hiatus from entertaining or going out. In order to eat clean I feel like I need to prepare food in my own home and do it right.<br />
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So again, here I am at the beginning.<br />
<br />Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-18389316738849287152012-08-28T17:00:00.000-06:002012-08-28T17:00:03.971-06:00Grow upIf you can't be an adult get out of my face. If you think I am mean and scary, then you don't know me and if you don't know me I guess then I can be what you think I am instead of who I am just for you.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-4708979328722014502012-08-27T17:05:00.000-06:002012-08-27T17:05:00.586-06:00Post Exile - I am back now Exile was last Friday night and was a hell of a success. Brent and his partner Todd did an amazing job pulling this off. The LeatherMagick Board (Heather, Cinimin, Saskia, Issac and Becca) did a great job of getting people there. Janet was fantastic in supporting the event even with bar prep and back to school. I have never been referred to as a testicle before but apparently it was a good thing and we managed to pull off the event. I won't have an exact number for LM until the BBQ but I am sure it will be a large one.<br />
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So now that I am in the post event recovery mode before we finalize everything for the LeatherMagick Goodwill BBQ.<br />
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I really enjoy what Laura Antinoiou has to say and her recent speech at the 19th Anniversary of GWNN<br />
July 20, 2012 Austin, TX was yet another example of her making a community think. It can be found here: <a href="http://blog.lantoniou.com/?page_id=1861">http://blog.lantoniou.com/?page_id=1861</a><br />
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The section that hit home for me is quoted below:<br />
"Instead, protect your real lifestyle – not composed of ritual and habit and modes of dress and play and speech – but the style of your life that exists without any trappings whatsoever, your morals, ethics, your personal values and truths. Remind yourself that in order to become dignified, you should life a life of dignity. In order to earn respect, you must be respectful. In order to attract people around you who value loyalty, you must be a true and loyal friend and ally. In order to be taken seriously as a leader, you must…lead. These things will not come naturally and they won’t always be easy. Sometimes, you have to pretend you are better mannered than you feel like you truly are, inside. But enough time spent pretending you have good manners…guess what happens?<br />
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You become polite."<br />
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I have felt guilty about stepping back. Guilty that I haven't "correctly attired" my partner. That I am not a "good" enough submissive to him. You know what. I shouldn't. I know, there are people that have been telling me that for years but it is finally hitting home.<br />
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On other notes, I am hunting for a 5K to be able to set as a goal this spring. Here's to getting back in shape.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-13819104994747379702012-08-03T14:35:00.000-06:002012-08-03T14:35:08.985-06:00Friday!This is a rare weekend where we don't have a bunch of places to be. I love our friends but I am completely ok with having a weekend to play catch up. We have plans to do the market, have a nice breakfast just us and then do some serious work in the house. I am planning on getting the rest of the sewing room put together and completing a couple of projects. We are also going to plan on working in the yard some. I want to get my serger set up and make myself a couple of blouses. Should be a good weekend.<br />
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The challenge this weekend will actually be staying on track with diet and exercise. I have been really good at work, now I need to keep those good habits at home. We are planning on some early morning yard work which is always a positive way to get out and get some exercise. I look forward to it.<br />
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I was five for five this week on getting a walk in on one of my breaks. Going to try to add two a day for two days next week to build on this good habit! Looking forward to it.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-9692544033844195312012-08-02T13:18:00.000-06:002012-08-02T13:18:19.469-06:00Waiting on confirmationSo yesterday I did something for myself, I got my nails done. I am happy so far, we will see how they wear.<br />
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I also managed to field phone calls about a personal situation from my reality check person and feel like I am<br />
in a good place with it. Will see what happens with things as the situation develops. Either way I can sit down at the table or walk away and I am ok with it.<br />
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Several weeks ago I connected with the board of an organization and essentially asked the "What have you done for me lately" question. The answer was basically, nothing but would you like to change that. I said that I would be very interested in changing it. I have had a communication stall for a couple of weeks but this morning found out that I will be presented to the board at a meeting next week to potentially be an interim in the position. So fingers crossed.<br />
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I was able to stay within the calorie counts yesterday and am on track for tonight. I didn't get a full walk in on my morning break because of stiffness so I will try to make it up this afternoon.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-10976495873700320922012-08-01T14:18:00.001-06:002012-08-01T14:18:57.051-06:00And I'm off... Seriously, I amSo here I am back again. The last five months have been a series of interesting curve balls, redeveloping connections and finding a place for me in my own world. I have seriously backed off of involvement in several things to focus on my relationship and myself. I have done the health consultation and have worked to develop a plan to take me down to a healthy weight in my average height. The goal is 125 pounds by November of 2013. I have my "tools" which include the fit bit, P90X and Loseit.com to track my eating habits. My friends and partner are on board and I have developed a system of accountability. The goal in all of this is to keep doing the things I enjoy in terms of cooking, entertaining and socializing. So here we go.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-50369227807431971662012-03-02T12:47:00.000-07:002012-03-02T12:47:10.251-07:00Its so Friday!It has been a long week but today is Friday. Usually I am gearing up for a relaxing weekend but this weekend I am bouncing off the walls because the basement project is ALMOST done. The walls are being textured today and they should be ready for paint in the morning. So we will do painting and light fixtures tomorrow and then lay floor on Sunday. I am really looking forward to having it done and having the drywall dust and construction mess gone.<br />
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Things with the eating change seem to be doing well. I am down some and getting better about watching what I eat. I am using loseit.com with the nook to maintain as accurate a log as possible. I am walking with the lady from work, though didn't today because of the weather, and will get back to the gym starting this weekend. I am really looking forward to seeing positive progress.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-47560897802378960672012-02-28T10:18:00.000-07:002012-02-28T10:18:53.503-07:00So this is rock bottom, at least as far as I am concernedSo I am sure that the initial thought of people reading the subject line is that this will be a negative post. I am taking it the other direction.<br />
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I stepped on the scale this morning and it flashed the heaviest number I have ever seen. That's it. That number is the final straw. I won't let it get any larger. I refuse to. So what does that mean?<br />
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1) Refined Sugar is out<br />
2) I am going to walk daily at work with a co-worker for one of the 15 minute breaks<br />
3) I will be going to the gym at least four times a week<br />
a) For the next three weeks Cardio only<br />
b) After that point cardio and strength training<br />
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We are starting to utilize the Paleo Diet and I am looking forward to making those changes.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-64048984100644063902012-02-24T13:19:00.000-07:002012-02-24T13:19:56.489-07:00The agony and power of saying noSo on my lunch hour I was floating around the inter-webs and came across a site that is one of my favorites. I have been down about my wardrobe and was just kind of searching. The deal was great 70% off already and an additional 25% off. I went through the site found stuff I loved and started putting it in my card. I wedged it down to a "reasonable" amount and was almost through the checkout process. That was when I asked the question I should have asked well before that point. Do I need this? The answer was no. Do I want this? The answer was yes. Then I started going through a list, do I want it more than the hot tub cover? The bathroom counters? A dinner out with friends? The checkout process stopped, cart is deleted.<br />
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The question and thought process now is about the process I was using and what I am not thinking about in terms of decision making. We talk a lot about priorities in our lives but I am not sure that I am factoring those priorities into daily life. Something to think about.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-71722743371344906372012-02-22T14:59:00.000-07:002012-02-22T14:59:37.081-07:00Finding a way to find myself - Sugar AddictionOne of the things that I have started to consciously work on is making the outside match my insides. After having discovered that Gluten = Sick for me I learned what it was like to feel good. That lasted until I started "cheating" and finding ways to manage symptoms instead of dealing with the root cause. I do that a lot more than I like to admit.<br />
The past 10 days have been about consciously "eating clean" when it comes to gluten. Does it mean that I didn't desperately want a brownie, nope. Does it mean that I can just walk away from fresh bread without feeling deprived, nope. Does it mean that I need to separate the emotion of eating the gluten from the emotion of the time, absolutely.<br />
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I don't have a serious sweet tooth, sweet isn't the flavor that makes me happy, but I am finding myself not willing to give up the sugar filled treats when I am stressed or in the evenings. That is the next task I want to tackle in order to make some changes. So starting tonight I am going to make a conscious effort to go the next six months without refined sugar based sweets. This dovetails into the Paleo based diet that I am working towards as well. <br />
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Interesting reads regarding kicking sugar addiction:<br />
<a href="http://www.girl-heroes.com/2009/01/29/10-ways-to-help-break-a-sugar-addiction/">http://www.girl-heroes.com/2009/01/29/10-ways-to-help-break-a-sugar-addiction/</a> <br />
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<a href="http://www.healthguidance.org/entry/2664/1/Break-the-Sugar-Addiction-Six-Easy-Steps.html">http://www.healthguidance.org/entry/2664/1/Break-the-Sugar-Addiction-Six-Easy-Steps.html</a>Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-61574991874693548392011-06-11T14:35:00.001-06:002012-02-20T10:41:13.575-07:00TransitionsPlanning to get the garden in this afternoon. I want to make sure that there will actually be a crop this year. Got the trees taken care of and some of the other yard work done. It is time to make the house be a showplace again.<br />
Off to see if I can beat the rain.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-87003422674278389092011-05-11T17:54:00.000-06:002011-05-13T14:42:51.875-06:00Rainy day brings hot bootsSo yesterday we went out and set all the sprinklers. Every spring they have to be adjusted and so we went through the process. We set the timer for 1:15 am and called it good. Ten minutes after getting into the house the rain started and hasn't stopped since. We can so use the moisture but darn it.....<br />
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What made me smile today was getting into the boxes of shoes that I ordered with some "found money." I am really happy with most of them. One paid is eh. Either way hot shoes that I can walk in :D:DGracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-84253092260776353242011-05-09T18:18:00.000-06:002011-05-09T18:18:25.278-06:00Swine and cheese dinnerFor Sunday we had a group of good friends over for a meal. It has been a long time since I was able to spend the day putting together a nice dinner without being totally rushed and feeling like what I was putting out wasn't going to be up to par. For the theme I had originally planned on just showcasing the cheeses I brought back from Toronto. It morphed into the "Swine and Cheese" dinner. Each course had a cheese component and a pork component.<br />
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The menu was as follows:<br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoNjnW78lxHyvGyChwjBHlWLQXFSr5ObaxrYrCbXWFdHjkhl1Ydl-4wLSUuMW_1bneZ8mc9ljkUKBfT_JvijKCJ4TDQ1BvUF6nJdcL_VAXb7cg6k-gyGrjxdTtxC8ploLBE7RoRPHZdW8o/s1600/Quiche+and+salad.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="239" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoNjnW78lxHyvGyChwjBHlWLQXFSr5ObaxrYrCbXWFdHjkhl1Ydl-4wLSUuMW_1bneZ8mc9ljkUKBfT_JvijKCJ4TDQ1BvUF6nJdcL_VAXb7cg6k-gyGrjxdTtxC8ploLBE7RoRPHZdW8o/s320/Quiche+and+salad.jpg" width="320" /></a>Greek style Chorizo and raw milk cheddar quiche with Romaine salad with Buche Cabri (Raw goat milk cheese) and black cherry glazed Canadian Bacon. (Pictured)<br />
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Pork tenderloin stuffed with Triple Cream Brie, rubbed with apple mushroom paste and wrapped in puff pastry. Green beans with butter and Pepita. Roasted purple sweet potatoes with garlic.<br />
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Dark chocolate goat cheese ice cream with maple candied bacon.<br />
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It seemed to go over well.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-88174998248667043022011-05-05T19:36:00.000-06:002011-05-05T19:36:29.398-06:00Long DaysIt has been a long day. There are not many that just make me want to freak but this one did. Some mistakes were made in the place that I work and it is going to cost big. I have some hard days ahead and that makes for a daunting task. I am going to be in super boss mode for a while which makes things a little harder.<br />
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On the upside I planted the raspberries and the roses are in as well. The garden is setting up well and I am looking forward to planning an event centered around cheese on Sunday. I will be hosting seven for dinner and looking forward to it. Bed early for me tonight.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4667106091288082322.post-89728067156529814642011-05-01T20:05:00.000-06:002011-05-01T20:05:31.479-06:00So why Purple Butterfly NightsI am a simple person when it comes to my core but can be complex from the outside looking in. I chose the blog purple butterfly nights because it speaks to a bit about myself. I love purple in many ways that will certainly be explored through time. I love butterflies. There is a variety and beauty to each one. And the nights. While my days belong split between the public and my employer the nights belong to me to spend how I please.<br />
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This blog will be about a variety of things. It will be an adult oriented blog. I am involved in the public BDSM lifestyle and it will factor in my writings here. I choose my path there and I do not apologize for it. If you do not agree that is your choice, I am simply warning you upfront that this will factor in my writing.<br />
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I am a foodie. I really enjoy food and the preparation of food. I have special dietary restrictions as does my partner. As a result we get very creative very quickly.Gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03621708997086423766noreply@blogger.com0