Wiped out and reactive hypoglycemia

For the last several days my blood sugars have been up and down. Being forced to leave an event that I was hosting on Saturday was among the last straws. So I went through a researched. Apparently because of the way the American standard diet is it limits blood sugar crashes and trends toward a higher blood sugar in general. With the gluten free diet I tend to forget the rules about balancing carbs, protein and fat. In large part I have tried to eliminate starches or limit them to once a day to try to pull some of my weight off. As a result I tend not to be doing a lot in terms of carbs.

I had a blood draw done on Saturday and I hope that this will be what the new practitioner needs to "fix" me. I should find out something hopefully tomorrow if not I will hope for by the end of the week. They have agreed to send me the results once they have them.

Vegetable Beef Soup - The Homemade Version

So this has been back to "being good" and avoiding gluten at all costs. Work can be hard. My boss on occasion buys lunch for everyone. The problem is it is usually lunch for everyone but me. It is hard to put that image of sticking out in the lunchroom in junior high away. I hate not being able to join in but have learned that the pizza and pasta she usually opts to buy the staff is definitely not worth the risk. It is days like this that my resolve weakens and I do things that I wouldn't normally that hurt in the long run. So this week, I decided knowing that she was going to buy Italian for the staff that I would make myself some vegetable beef soup. So I got some good lean beef, onions from our garden, carrots, heirloom golden potatoes  mushrooms and green peas. A little home made beef broad and tomato powder. I am looking forward to having it though I am not sure it will mitigate the smell of the Italian. At least I am trying.

So "I'm back" wasn't really there....

Ever feel like you have written the same cycle of blog entries 1,000 times?

We'll here it is again. I finally found someone I think can actually help with the chronic pain issues. I am going to have to be very strict with my diet. I am also going to do what I can to drop the weight and strengthen my back. If I don't then there isn't going to be much enjoyment in my world.

So what does that mean? Means I got a kick in my butt about the fact that it is me being lazy that is the reason I hurt and am heavy. So I am going to take a shot at couch to 10K. 13 weeks of training to run. I am going to work on several 5K and 10K runs this summer.

So I am currently finding a way to download audio books and putting together some playlists. I have a plan and put exercise on my schedule and the family calendar. No hiding from it now. I will pull out workout clothing tonight when I get home.

I am going to take a three-week hiatus from entertaining or going out. In order to eat clean I feel like I need to prepare food in my own home and do it right.

So again, here I am at the beginning.

Waiting on confirmation

So yesterday I did something for myself, I got my nails done. I am happy so far, we will see how they wear.

I also managed to field phone calls about a personal situation from my reality check person and feel like I am
in a good place with it. Will see what happens with things as the situation develops. Either way I can sit down at the table or walk away and I am ok with it.

Several weeks ago I connected with the board of an organization and essentially asked the "What have you done for me lately" question. The answer was basically, nothing but would you like to change that. I said that I would be very interested in changing it. I have had a communication stall for a couple of weeks but this morning found out that I will be presented to the board at a meeting next week to potentially be an interim in the position. So fingers crossed.

I was able to stay within the calorie counts yesterday and am on track for tonight. I didn't get a full walk in on my morning break because of stiffness so I will try to make it up this afternoon.

And I'm off... Seriously, I am

So here I am back again. The last five months have been a series of interesting curve balls, redeveloping connections and finding a place for me in my own world. I have seriously backed off of involvement in several things to focus on my relationship and myself. I have done the health consultation and have worked to develop a plan to take me down to a healthy weight in my average height. The goal is 125 pounds by November of 2013. I have my "tools" which include the fit bit, P90X and Loseit.com to track my eating habits. My friends and partner are on board and I have developed a system of accountability. The goal in all of this is to keep doing the things I enjoy in terms of cooking, entertaining and socializing. So here we go.

Its so Friday!

It has been a long week but today is Friday. Usually I am gearing up for a relaxing weekend but this weekend I am bouncing off the walls because the basement project is ALMOST done. The walls are being textured today and they should be ready for paint in the morning. So we will do painting and light fixtures tomorrow and then lay floor on Sunday. I am really looking forward to having it done and having the drywall dust and construction mess gone.

Things with the eating change seem to be doing well. I am down some and getting better about watching what I eat. I am using loseit.com with the nook to maintain as accurate a log as possible. I am walking with the lady from work, though didn't today because of the weather, and will get back to the gym starting this weekend. I am really looking forward to seeing positive progress.

So this is rock bottom, at least as far as I am concerned

So I am sure that the initial thought of people reading the subject line is that this will be a negative post. I am taking it the other direction.

I stepped on the scale this morning and it flashed the heaviest number I have ever seen. That's it. That number is the final straw. I won't let it get any larger. I refuse to. So what does that mean?

1) Refined Sugar is out
2) I am going to walk daily at work with a co-worker for one of the 15 minute breaks
3) I will be going to the gym at least four times a week
   a) For the next three weeks Cardio only
   b) After that point cardio and strength training

We are starting to utilize the Paleo Diet and I am looking forward to making those changes.