Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Testing flavors

One of the things that used to take stress off of me was to bake or cook. I am getting back to where that is fun. I am looking forward to doing some test batches tonight. I am thinking Chocolate Peppermint and Gingerbread.....

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Supplements are here

I really didn't figure at 31 that I would be taking handfuls of pills morning and night. I have a bunch of supplements, anti-inflammatory herbs and then trying to eat right. Fighting through this is going to be a hard thing but I hope worth it in the end. With proper nutrition I am hoping my body can start letting go of the fat. 

I have the running plan ready to start when I get back from Laramie this weekend. We got the downstairs cleaned out and should have the exercise bikes in place before the end of the weekend as well. I have the exercise balls in and I am working really hard on setting myself up for success.

Here's to another week and heading off to get the pills put together and start healing, or so I hope.

Friday, October 05, 2012

Trying to stay positive - Reduced risk of Hormone based cancer is good

I see a lot of things from the recent test results here. Trying to stay positive. This weekend will be cleaning out the fridge, freezers and pantry.  Have to get it super clean.

Thursday, October 04, 2012

The results are in....

So after a very disappointing experience I have a copy of the blood work  The analysis from the medical professional could take a couple of weeks. I have had a couple of people with medical backgrounds look it over and bottom line it is filled with a high white count, malnutrition and inflammation.

The most likely cause is damage from full blown Celiac's disease. That is my starting point. I don't know where else to go if not there. I have ordered supplements that should help with the nutritional absorption and will make the additional changes to my diet. I have committed to doing what I can to make my diet cleaner than it already is. I have also committed to taking control of exercise and getting back to it.

I am frustrated. This is literally an auto-immune condition where your body attacks itself. You don't "catch" it, your body reacts. Some say it is genetics, some say it is dietary but medical science does not know. There is no cure, this is a lifetime commitment that comes with increased risk of thyroid issues, rheumatoid arthritis, headaches, joint pain and inflammation. Heart issues, skin issues and many others are a likelihood.

Tuesday, October 02, 2012

Wiped out and reactive hypoglycemia

For the last several days my blood sugars have been up and down. Being forced to leave an event that I was hosting on Saturday was among the last straws. So I went through a researched. Apparently because of the way the American standard diet is it limits blood sugar crashes and trends toward a higher blood sugar in general. With the gluten free diet I tend to forget the rules about balancing carbs, protein and fat. In large part I have tried to eliminate starches or limit them to once a day to try to pull some of my weight off. As a result I tend not to be doing a lot in terms of carbs.

I had a blood draw done on Saturday and I hope that this will be what the new practitioner needs to "fix" me. I should find out something hopefully tomorrow if not I will hope for by the end of the week. They have agreed to send me the results once they have them.

Friday, September 28, 2012

Vegetable Beef Soup - The Homemade Version

So this has been back to "being good" and avoiding gluten at all costs. Work can be hard. My boss on occasion buys lunch for everyone. The problem is it is usually lunch for everyone but me. It is hard to put that image of sticking out in the lunchroom in junior high away. I hate not being able to join in but have learned that the pizza and pasta she usually opts to buy the staff is definitely not worth the risk. It is days like this that my resolve weakens and I do things that I wouldn't normally that hurt in the long run. So this week, I decided knowing that she was going to buy Italian for the staff that I would make myself some vegetable beef soup. So I got some good lean beef, onions from our garden, carrots, heirloom golden potatoes  mushrooms and green peas. A little home made beef broad and tomato powder. I am looking forward to having it though I am not sure it will mitigate the smell of the Italian. At least I am trying.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Some days

Some days crawling back under the covers was the right option..... Oh well, I will make the best of the day

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

So "I'm back" wasn't really there....

Ever feel like you have written the same cycle of blog entries 1,000 times?

We'll here it is again. I finally found someone I think can actually help with the chronic pain issues. I am going to have to be very strict with my diet. I am also going to do what I can to drop the weight and strengthen my back. If I don't then there isn't going to be much enjoyment in my world.

So what does that mean? Means I got a kick in my butt about the fact that it is me being lazy that is the reason I hurt and am heavy. So I am going to take a shot at couch to 10K. 13 weeks of training to run. I am going to work on several 5K and 10K runs this summer.

So I am currently finding a way to download audio books and putting together some playlists. I have a plan and put exercise on my schedule and the family calendar. No hiding from it now. I will pull out workout clothing tonight when I get home.

I am going to take a three-week hiatus from entertaining or going out. In order to eat clean I feel like I need to prepare food in my own home and do it right.

So again, here I am at the beginning.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Grow up

If you can't be an adult get out of my face. If you think I am mean and scary, then you don't know me and if you don't know me I guess then I can be what you think I am instead of who I am just for you.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Post Exile - I am back now

Exile was last Friday night and was a hell of a success. Brent and his partner Todd did an amazing job pulling this off. The LeatherMagick Board (Heather, Cinimin, Saskia, Issac and Becca) did a great job of getting people there. Janet was fantastic in supporting the event even with bar prep and back to school. I have never been referred to as a testicle before but apparently it was a good thing and we managed to pull off the event. I won't have an exact number for LM until the BBQ but I am sure it will be a large one.

So now that I am in the post event recovery mode before we finalize everything for the LeatherMagick Goodwill BBQ.

I really enjoy what Laura Antinoiou has to say and her recent speech at the 19th Anniversary of GWNN
July 20, 2012 Austin, TX was yet another example of her making a community think. It can be found here:

The section that hit home for me is quoted below:
"Instead, protect your real lifestyle – not composed of ritual and habit and modes of dress and play and speech – but the style of your life that exists without any trappings whatsoever, your morals, ethics, your personal values and truths. Remind yourself that in order to become dignified, you should life a life of dignity. In order to earn respect, you must be respectful. In order to attract people around you who value loyalty, you must be a true and loyal friend and ally. In order to be taken seriously as a leader, you must…lead. These things will not come naturally and they won’t always be easy. Sometimes, you have to pretend you are better mannered than you feel like you truly are, inside. But enough time spent pretending you have good manners…guess what happens?

You become polite."

I have felt guilty about stepping back. Guilty that I haven't "correctly attired" my partner. That I am not a "good" enough submissive to him. You know what. I shouldn't. I know, there are people that have been telling me that for years but it is finally hitting home.

On other notes, I am hunting for a 5K to be able to set as a goal this spring. Here's to getting back in shape.